Breathing Above Water

1) This one is hard because once you’ve made the decision to kill yourself, you are at rock bottom, and the sun hitting the ocean is miles away; you are too far away to see light. The key to not being suicidal (in my experience) is to know that everything is temporary. The water you are about to swallow to drown is only one aspect of a very complex ecosystem called life. I know next to nothing about scince, but I do know the ocean is a warm hug once you get used to the temperature.

2) You are thinking: there is no light. But there is. It is as real as your pain. You just have to cut through the clouds, see the good through the bad. That person who smiled at you in the street? They meant only good. See the good in others, and they will help you find the light you have not seen, the light you don’t know you crave.

3) You might be thinking, it’s hopeless. My life is hopeless. But, I’ve seen rock bottom many times and there is always room for growth, for change. How could there not be? You are in charge of your destiny. At any moment, you can push up from the bottom and change direction, go with the current or against it - however you see fit. It’s your life, no one else has it, no one else is in charge of you. Harness your wild emotions and know - simply know - that this pain will wash away and you are a priceless addition to the waters that be.

You might be thinking, it will never get better. But it does. Summer comes, people embrace each other, and life goes on. It is not perfect, or linear, but the sunlight does hit all who seek it.

It gets bettter. I promise.

Hang in there.