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(TRIGGER WARNING)

There are days when I feel like crying. There are days when I feel like dying. There are days when I don't want to eat, but I do it anyways. There are days when I get so much sleep, but I'm still so tired.

There are days when I feel like crying because I'm told I'm not importaint. There are days when I feel like dying because I'm constantly told I'm a disapointment. There are day's were I don't want to eat, but do it because I can't be an attention seeker. There are days when I get so much sleep and yet I'm still tired, no, that's not how sleep works.

I feel like everyone around me doesn't understand. That the people I live closest to think they know me when they really don't, but that's just me being an emo, right? Because I'm just an open book, publically being read by everyone who leaves their eyes on me.

I'm just a silly teenager who doesn't know anything. Psh! I can't know how the world works! I'm only in my early teens! I don't know about how everyone suffers! I don't know about how it's life or death! How things are shit! How the world can go fuck itself! But no, if I have that kind of out look, I'll just go on being depressed.

I feel like no one understands. No, I know no one understands. Wait... such words are lies. There is one person and one person alone.

I loath them, this person. If I could kill this person I would, without hesatation. They are so stupid idiotic. An idiot. They look horendous and is just about everything I hate. Their personallity is shit. They're a fucking demon, my demon. This stupid demon comforts me. Because....

This demon is me.