I knew you were gone when I met you

I’m not going to say I tried.

I lied.

I tried.

Over and over I tried.

I never wanted anything but to know you,

But you insisted I show you,

And once you saw the depth you dove,

And your fate was sealed closed.

Like ice that’s formed over a lake

Without the wind the water won’t shake

Protected yet blocked I can see you through the glass.

Swimming deeper and deeper,

Until you breath doesn’t last.

And then you want to blame me for jumping to save you.

For spending the time to dig up your grave,

You want to throw all the dirt in my face,

The way that me saving you was a disgrace.

You know that it was you who used me to death;

you used me as air and I was your breath.

Pushed yourself away and blamed me for the fall.

There wasn’t time to take a gasp at all.