Empty

Sitting in the kitchen, hanging with my family

Laughing, cracking jokes; they make me so happy

But I walk away from the table and now I feel empty

I just wanna cry

I been reminiscing all day, thinking about those who have passed

Thinking about Bear and Dan because we had a blast

Wishing I could turn back time and live in the past

Time just flew by

I want to be alone but I want a hug

I want someone to notice but I don’t want to speak up

I hold it inside but I don’t want to erupt

I don’t know why

I have no motivation so I lie in my room

Instead of doing what I love I begin to think through

The past, my life, and my inevitable doom

I’m not ready to die

I didn’t feel like this until two days ago

What caused this; I’m not sure I know

I feel empty and I don’t know what to do

I just want to be alone