The Symphony of the Broken Hearted

My world slowly fades to grey,

As I watch you walk away.

I’ve caused you much grief and sorrow,

And you were mine today but not tomorrow.

I feel my joy now is all gone,

By my own hand I’ve done you wrong.

Like a bad dream I’m gone and forgotten,

My soul truly is dead and rotten.

I feel the weight crushing inside,

So now back to the darkness is where I hide.

It may be dark but they all know me there,

If you loved me once then say a prayer.

I don’t know why I can’t get this right,

But I’m out of gas can’t keep up this fight.

But it’s not your fault I don’t blame you,

You did your best to make it through.

At the end of the day this falls on me,

And with no strength left I fall to one knee.

My battle is over here I’ve done what I may,

But my best wasn’t enough to make you stay.

So now I’ve lost you through no fault but my own,

I pushed you away the space it has grown.

You say you’ll come back you’ll still be my wife,

But here on this ground I’ve given up my life.

I know where I’m headed it may not be to far,

To open that wound cut open that scar.

I can hear two types of music I hear it very well,

Like a slamming cell door or funeral church bell.

Only two options simple nothing more,

If that’s all that there was what was I fighting for?

I’ll sneak out of the house later tonight,

I won’t raise a soul I won’t stir a fright.

I know where I’m going the damage is done,

I’ll face it tonight at the end of their gun.

You won’t see me again I hope you move on,

By mornings first light I’ll be dead and gone.

I should have ran away to save you right when it started,

But now I’m a member of The Symphony of the Broken Hearted.