a real-life in-person physical-copy

Funny... check

Handsome... check

Street smart,

Book smart,

Capable,

Athletic,

Nice,

Musically inclined...

all of the above...check

im not sure if you see the pros and cons of this guy...

bc all all I see are pros *blink*

oh wait

^depression...check

But he was mine.

Or at least he was in my head.

A pretty picture,

a doll, makeup on.

I’d liked actors and musicians,

several deceased individuals,

maybe a couple professional athletes,

and, as any of us may understand, more than a countable number of book characters

...but he was real.

And that was why he was different.

A real-life, in-person, physical-copy.

7th period

last row

desk in the corner

Never talked in person

...can’t get myself to spend any courage

never invest any courage

can’t grow my supply

won’t talk to him

just watch

distance

all I’ll ever do

gave an apple pie to another guy

only the year before

spent all my courage then

wasnt a crush

hate the guy now

for misusing my courage

only watch...

all I’ll ever do

he's so pretty that’s all I need to do

I’d embarrass myself otherwise

Complimented me on a google meet

Told me he liked my pfp

said Merlin’s a top notch show

I didn’t see til he’d left

only watch...

all I’ll ever do

but I’m cool with that