a poem for dar
i wish i could be half as talented as dar williams
she makes characters i know well
the babysitter
i had that same babysitter
named margaret coe
she was sort of a hippie
long brown hair that she cut all off because it got too tangled one day
she couldn’t tell her left from her right
her mind was always other places
when she went to college i cried
i still cry sometimes thinking about her
i wanted to be her
she made drawings for me and my little brother
and cut them out and let us use them as toys
i remembered her even when i was older
and depressed
and i couldn’t remember anything anymore
i have always remembered margaret
when i want to make the choices of mark rothko
but haven’t yet created anything worthy of being kept in a museum
when i hold my bottle of pills
so often it becomes comforting
maybe it’s because i haven’t met yoko ono yet
or seen a sunrise that broke me more than killing my own baby