In this tiny brain

Can anyone explain to me why stupidity is punishable by law, why innocent people were and are still figuratively speaking beheaded for not giving a second thought about living in this society and about the rules that tightly bound and limit this era, about why living in a place could be punishable by a book not many people had enough time to read or having too small of a memory that their little head that carry more anxiety than space can carry no more than the phrase 'let's get through this first' ;

And then there are the times when overthinking costs more damage than the actual problem, that is if there was a problem in the first place, i hate my life, i hate my brain, i hate my limited capacity to handle one thing at a time, because at one time of my life i handled to mush that i had to reboot my system but in at the end of that process i found my self programmed to protect my sanity over all, as i still do to this day, am terrified of losing my logic and train of thoughts, am terrified of wanting to die, and of trying to end my life if things are to mush for me;

We live on this planet where a category of people are secretly fragile and allergic to their own thoughts, where the toxicity in their head is mush riskier business than the one in our current atmosphere, i wish life was easy as describing feelings with written words, but the truth is that we as mute when it comes to feelings as we are asked repeatedly to engage and act according to how we feel, when we ourselves have no idea what or when to feel, we are doomed to be exiled one day or the other, because our brains were programmed to protect us from the inside before caring about the outside world