don’t ask me to be happy

Some of us are scared to smile, because every time we smiled a calamity occurred, that is what our brains wants us to believe, that our happiness is always followed by this shadow for whom the sole purpose is to make us miserable and pay the price of that joy we dared to feel, you can not simply command a person to not fear loss, when their logic is based on a lifetime of broken hearts and bloody tears, our point of view is different from yours, we don't want to be pessimistic, but we have seen enough pain to last us a lifetime, we are not thinking about being happy because we are too focused trying not to get sad