Committed

I struggle, yet I get by.

My mental health

brings me down.

Further and further down.

The depression takes over,

I sit in the dark.

I lock my mind in the dark,

While my physical body moves.

I can’t get out of it,

Work takes over.

If I don’t work,

Everything drifts away.

Losing everything.

I can’t lose it all.

The fake smile shines,

While no one knows.

Yet one person knows.

He has always known.

He has always wanted

To take control.

If he gets his way,

I’ll be locked up.

I will lose more

than everything I fear.

I will lose my life.

I will be committed.

I will lose all life choices.

They will lock me up.

Would they ever let me out?

Would I be stuck there forever?

I’m not crazy,

I’m depressed.

He can’t do it,

He can’t lock me up.

Not in that place,

Not like that.

@Danceinsilence