some days

when I start reading

S A D

books

There's a pain in my heart.

I open my mouth to let it out.

I choke.

It strangles my ribcage

just around the underband of my bra.

Why is it there?

When did it get there?

I hate it.

I can't breathe,

And yet when I can't feel it

I miss it.

Or perhaps I just want to feel again.