sometimes i want to die without actually having to .
is that really so much to ask for ?
you can put a gun to my head , and I'd say please . Shoot .
you can give me the most antagonising death ever ,
burn me alive , detach my limbs one by one ,
and I'd still say thanks .
And everyone around me is just saying
" bE pOsItiVe "
" iT's nOt ThAt haRd "
well not to be rude but
if i could be positive .
in this current moment .
wouldn't you think I'd have already tried it ?
if i could be positive .
i wouldn't be in this situation right now .
i tried it and failed .
oh so miserably .
i only dug myself deeper into a pit filled with quick sand .
the more i squirm ,
the more i get sucked in ,
the deeper i go .
i'm already at rock bottom .
my next destination is 6-feet under .