Jumped

Opening the balcony door 

The wind gushes, whipping thru my hair 

My ball grown beautifully swaying 

My heart pounding, what are you saying?

 Looking out over the terrace

 Down at the lights of Paris 

The rushing lights of racing cars 

Touching my chest full of scars

 I smirk at our experienced encounter

 I can tell you've done that before

 How many women had clawed you sore?

 My weak muscles were no match 

So my clothes you detached I told you no, you assumed as a joke 

So my soul you poked

 French love, European pain 

My dress melting under this rain Am I insane?

 My mascara run slowly, from tears 

Or is that my fear? 

The wind angles the rain towards by face 

There's a cut on my lip, my blood I taste 

The lights seem to be dancing below

 Passing people exchanging a '

Hello' I step up to the railing, hands shaking 

Wishing I could stop my heart from aching

You're long gone, gone to another victim 

Yet I feel you, I turn around quick 

Laughing at my mind's trick

 It's slowly replaced back with a frown

 A scowl even, as my crown falls down

 A queen of my own domain

 Dethroned by one man 

I slip out of my heels, they fall first

 Ironically, I see a passing Hearst 

Grabbing the railing tight 

First left foot then next right

 My heart rate won't decrease 

My pain just want to increase

The burning in my body

I still feel you forcing yourself in me

I look to the Man above, 

As I cry of a dove,

Asking how he allow you to harm me?

I lean towards the happy lives below me, 

something that drives me insane 

because that was me 

Before you used me, hurt me

 This Pain I must end

 You won't hurt me anymore 

Letting go, free falling 

Death is my calling

 I jumped.