Back in time...

The smell is what gets me,

Brings me back to that one night,

Scared and broken,

But putting up a good fight.

When all was said and done,

We parted ways,

You full of hate,

And me full of tears,

Wishing for you to come back,

So you can stay with me for the rest of my years.

But now,

As time has went by,

I wonder why I held on to you so long?

I knew I wouldn’t be able to stay with you,

The part of me that loves is long gone.

I’ve a broken heart,

Never to love.

My laugh gives way to tears,

And anger so hot it sears.

They told me to let some walls down,

To open up,

Because being so closed off has me hell-bound.

But I looked them in the eye and said,

“If everyone knew what you do,

Where would I be?”

Another hospital,

Because the names would come back to haunt me.

Because the scars on my arms would open back up,

The blood to seap from my skin.

The freedom I thought I was gaining laughing in my face,

Telling me I’ve sinned.

So then I’m locked in a cage,

Like an animal,

Like I’m crazy.

But I’m only crazy because I face reality.

Because there’s no way you could live in this world,

And not wish to disappear.