Again
Mom I'm sad again but you can't hear me
I'm sitting on my bed crying about a friend
About many friends that wished they were dead
Sitting there wishing I could take it away
You told me I couldn't save everyone
And I still think about it to this day
Mom I'm sad again but you can't hear me
Remember when my friend died? That was the most shocking thing that happened to me in that moment of my life
And I was plummeted into a depression I didn't know existed inside me
I know you did the best you could
But why did you have to say I needed to get over it
Mom I'm sad again but you can't hear me
It's like when my old boyfriend broke up with me because I was sad
So I was sad like any normal teen would be
And you asked if you should get me help
But your tone was excited and angry
The way you sounded most of my life
Mom I'm sad again but you can't hear me
I'm not sure I want you to hear me
But I hear about the comfort people get from their mothers
And wonder why it was so hard for me to feel that
Mom I'm sad again but you can't hear me
Your mom just died and I can't be as sad as you want me to be
But I was pretty torn up inside
Why was that the only time you decided to point out my sadness?
As if my sadness was only convenient when you wanted it to be
At the worst possible time
When it was too late
Mom I'm sad again but you can't hear me
And you'll never really hear me
I guess that's just the way it is