idek what to call this...

I know no one asked for this but I felt like it so deal with it :D

First of all, it took me a good solid minute to find the writing button and that's just embarrassing on me.

OMG, DO THEY HAVE A SPELL CHECK NOW?? FINALLY???!!?!??!?! The number of times I wanted to murder Grammarly for not working or having to copy and paste work from Microsoft word/google doc was disgusting *eye roll* (or is my computer finally just not being dumb and telling me when my spelling is wrong? Do y'all have spell check?)

I don't have a lot to say about the update as I feel like we've all had time to scope it out before they put it into action and honestly, I really like the fresh layout. Although I do wish that the left sidebar wasn't as compact, I do really like everything else.

Anyways, also a little update on my personal life. Things are still going rather roughly with my father's recovery and hard adjusting to not really... having a dad... I guess? I was always super close with my father and now, it's like I lost him 6/7 months ago and I don't know who's sitting across the table from me.

I also went through a little... relationship scuffle and it really opened my eyes to some emotions and feelings that I never knew I was capable of feeling. Although we fell apart mainly because of distance it was a good lesson/experience.

Not that any of that was important, it has played a part in why I've not been on the sight. There's been many things that keep piling on top of each other including my rapid decline of proper mental health. As you can guess, life is very stressful right now with school, my father, my family in general, life, my future ahead, and my own health issues that have been causing me difficulties.

I would like to say that I've been writing this whole time but I'd be lying... in fact, I can count on one hand the amount of times I've sat down and attempted to do so. The thing is, for me to write, I have to be in an emotionally vulnerable state and I'm not too comfy on allowing myself to go there right now. Although, I do occasionally have to let a little leak out less I explode from the pressure...aka my new poetry book called Love & Other Mood Swings which, if you would like to be tagged in, let me know.

I am pushing myself to get back at the old grind and hopefully I will get my spark back and be able to keep emptying my imagination onto the paper before. Thank you all for greeting me when I came back. I've missed all of you so much and I'm glad you didn't forget me :)

Until next time! -jj