The confusion of grief
With the fresh reality, everyone shows up
"Let us help."
"What can we do?"
They don't know what to do.
I don't know what they can do.
Physically close is uncomfortable
because a hug may feel right
but could be rebuffed
where does that leave them?
It leaves them with arms empty
while I live days and nights
with every part of everything empty.
Talking is easy when I fill the air.
In the throes of disaster
I had a focus
there was illness or getting well
or planning for death...
all those provided a solution
The aftermath leaves nothing but
ends to tie up and items to sort.
and the things that show up that
I must decipher
Thoughts to clear away
pieces of white paper and colored
what to keep and whatever mattered
A life reduced to rubble
and piles of useless clutter.