My Deepest Love

I met you when we were kids, we quickly became friends oftentimes inseparable. Both of us were too young to know what love was. We played on the block together, always at one or the other house. As we grew up we grew apart briefly. There were times I missed our bond and friendship over the years. I needed our friendship, I was going through something horrible and felt all alone, and there you were like you knew at that moment I needed you.

You brought light to the end of my dark tunnel, you gave me a reason to believe, a reason to feel again. I loved you from childhood and I honestly never doubted that you felt the same for me. You didn't hide that we were feeling something. At 7 years old we promised to love each other forever, our parents laughed and said "just wait you will grow up." When I needed that love years later it was there, you were there.

In our teenage years, we were bound to each other, emotionally, physically, spiritually When I cried through heartbreak you held me, when I was angry you talked me down, you held my hand when I was scared. Our friendship grew into more than just friends, regardless of how much we denied what was happened to those watching around us, we knew deep down what was happening and what were feeling.

You were my everything for so long, even when were with other people. We gravitated back to each other. Being near you was simply amazing, you always soothed my soul. We always had each other's backs, you calmed my fears and gave me the world. The excitement, need, and love I felt for you can never be put into words.

Then the day came that I realized my fate, I saw the decision that had to be made. I had to walk away from the one person who meant everything to me. Your begging me to stay made my goodbye that much harder. Your life choices made it clear I had to get out. My future dreams were doomed with you. You loved me unconditionally, as I did you, but you took a path that was destined to end up in a bad place.

For years I fought the pain, the what if I was wrong questions. I cried myself to sleep for years because I longed for your touch, the feel of your skin, your scent, the look of passion in your eyes. You made it hard every time we bumped into each other, I wanted to come back, I wanted to touch you and hold you. I wanted to feel your arms around me and listen to your heartbeat as you held me. No one has ever loved me the way you did, and I have never loved anyone the way I loved you. You will always be my greatest love, forever in my heart.