again

I have had more than my piece of the pie

I lost my best friend, now my dad might die

My bestie died of cancer when I was only 11

Now my dad is diagnosed, i'm only a freshman

Trying to pretend everything is really ok

Acting like my life is really going great

Complaining about homework and wearing cutoff jeans

I will never get the chance to be a normal teen

chatting like an adult, acting indifferent

When inside I am tangled, twisted and ripped

Going to bed crying, hurt so much I can't breathe

Reminding myself to act fine,

Act like a normal teen

a 5% chance of 3 more years

how is this even real

He won't be at my wedding

or my graduation

he won't be there to pick me up

or brush away my tears

It is happening again

I am loosing what I love

I think I drew the short straw

this is so flipping wrong