a million shades of in between

The only parts of me,

that are drawn in black and white,

are in my eyes, and even they

drip color, in the moon drunk night.

I am in between love and sorrow

tip toeing the line of life and death,

above the ground, below the stars,

feeling calm as I take a breath.

I can not bow to a war,

I never needed to fight,

nor be scared of the dark

only to recoil in the light.

I am the spaces in between

that no one dares to touch.

fascinated by the idea of love,

but scared to love something too much.

My life is seen in colors,

saturated blues and pale reds

all too much and never enough,

subtle longing woven in the threads.

I am the raging dawn,

a collision between the sun and moon

the fusion of dripping colors,

in between forever and soon.

I hope you see it in my eyes,

something beyond the black and white,

the colors swirling in between,

where chaos and order finally unite.