Wanting you to show me

Wanting you to show me your love for me is like asking for you to jump off a bridge.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like me folding your clothes while you yell at me .

Wanting you to show me you love me is like me being on my laptop while staring at you from the other side while you pay attention to something else.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like me begging you for an apology.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like me waiting for you to treat me like a princess like you used to.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like drinking whiskey all night just to be able to have one good night .

Wanting you to show me you love me is impossible.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like kissing your feet and begging you to clean them before you come in .

Wanting you to show me you love me is like faking a smile when around family members .

Wanting you to show me you love me is like having to pretend i am ok with living with myself feeling unwanted.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like pretending you want to be with me when truly you don’t.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like asking you for a favor just to get a simple no as an answer.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like only being able to please you as i sit there and wonder what i did to deserve all of this.

Wanting you to show me you love me is like being diagnosed with depression and anxiety .

Wanting you to show me you love me

Is like loving myself less and less each day that goes by .