it’s halloween again

halloween is my favorite night of the year

i spent this morning surrounded with people who i won’t love past high school

they stayed until the afternoon

i wanted to kill myself

i can’t explain it, but i shared something sacred with them

they got to see me on Samhain

the one day a year i feel myself

the creepy crawlies in my soul match the creepy crawlies who ask for candy at my door

they saw me

and wanted to get pizza

how could they defile my temple like that?

i have been desecrated like the most holy of churches

the most unholy of places is where i love to reside

surrounded by black lace and candelabras and ghosts and vampires and witches

i was instead surrounded by people who obliterated my sacred day

i love halloween still

but it’s 9:30 at night and i have school tomorrow and i want to go to sleep

but i want to sit and stare at the stars

feel the magic

but honestly?

i can’t feel anything.

so happy halloween, i love your costume

how’s mine?