Future Planning

Right now I'm flailing

Can't shake the feeling

of quickly running

far and failing

So today I will be clinging

to any last hoping

I have left in by body shaking

Because lately I've been praying

and nothing has been happening

and I don't know what is happening

in the world surrounding

and in the lives with which I'm interacting

Since my head is so full of loathing

not self, but something

else that my words are not describing.

Tomorrow I'll be mailing

you the letter I spent my soul writing

all in the name of telling

you I'm not done believing

that the world is done giving

us what you need to stay standing

and not stop longing

for that great future you've been planning.