All we left behind

Maybe years or months passed by, I don't count anymore. Your voice is still in my head, and the way you made coffee in the mornings, then came and woke me. You're still here in my dreams, you're still mine in my dreams, sometimes it's like another reality. I don't know if it's better or worse, since you left, I'm questioning everything.

You left here your scent, maybe the only reason I can still smell it is that I still buy your favorite candle, even though I don't really like it. I bought the candle yesterday because I missed you a little more than usual, and that scent is you. It's just as refreshing as you were in the mornings.

I have to leave this room too since I know you won't come back. I left all the windows open for you, hoping you would fly in, like a bird, like that burd you caught so carefully one day. Why was I even waiting for you? You can't come back to me anymore, you're a ghost now.

I packed my bags, and I'm ready to go now. I have to leave everything behind too. Everything is just a memory now, there is no reason for me to stay here. It was harder letting you go than I ever thought it will be. We went through so much together, I knew you for so long, I thought it gonna take forever to let you go, but I did. It was hard, it broke me, but I let you go.

I still didn't drove since the accident, I couldn't. Who knows what could happen if I drove again? Maybe I would go after you, maybe I would send someone to you, which I can't handle again. One innocent person died because of me, which is more than enough. They say it's not my fault, but then who else's is? If I look more closely, I could've seen the other car, if I looked more closely, you're still with me.

I have to leave everything here. If I don't you gonna be stuck here, but you need to rest. I just need one more moment here, then I never gonna talk to you again. I love you. I know I didn't say this enough, while I could, but I really love you. Goodbye, my angel.