The Risk of Loving Me (TW suicide)

Please tell me this isn‘t real

when the only thing I can feel

is the need to leave.

I know I’m too fragile for this place

and I can see the concern on your face

Because I don‘t know if I’ll make it through one more day.

Do you ever get scared like me?

that the home we built, with lock and key

you‘ll open the door and there I’ll be

on the floor with the tile stained red.

Please don’t go, see this through

I know I can’t promise that I’ll be better soon

But my love for you is what keeps me here.

And I know it isn’t fair

that I put this weight on your shoulders, like I don’t care

that you have to see me fade this way.

But I want the home that we talked about

this is the one place where I have no doubts

The only future I see is with you.

One day I will be okay,

I’ll heal and you won’t be afraid that I’ll go away

we’ll look back on these times

and I’ll be happy that I’m yours and you’ll be happy that you are mine.