To be Frank

to be frank, i'm scared of getting into my next relationship.

with my last relationship, my mental health was distraught because of it and my feelings faded towards the end and it was hard to speak my mind.

i'm scared bc the way i reacted towards my first relationship i knew i would 100% say yes if this guy (now my ex) asked to be my bf.

but the guy I'm talking with right now, that I like, has a lot of the qualities i like and i feel easy to talk to and i like hanging out with him on ft and gaming etc. I feel unsure and scared if he were to ask me.

Idk if it's bc i'm scarred from my last one and scared I have rose tinted glasses on so now I wear pessimistic glasses?

There's so many doubts I have.

I think I just need to go on actual dates/hangouts with this guy and then I'll be able to know.

I hope?

It's just scary bc while I'm trying to figure out my feelings, he's flirting and giving obvious signs.

I'm just more scared he'll ask me before I have a clear answer in my head, I don't want to rush into a relationship like my last one that ended poorly

Anywho.. I'm going on a hangout (we never called it a date) tomorrow with him to see Dr. Strange.

tbh I'm very excited cause I've never hung out one-on-one with him before

o i pray its not awkward

this is such a cringe confession.

i miss kissing people.