YOU TOLD ME

Here i am again at the edge of insanity,

With the cold knife blade ready to plunge inside of me.

You brought me here,

My worst enemy,

My bully.

You said that those kids laughing down the hall were laughing at me

That i was never anything amazing,

That every award i won was out of pity

That every time that i was beaten by the kid bigger than me i deserved it,

You told me that i was worthless

And that if i kept living it was just petty,

You told me that when that kid on the internet said i was dumb it was true

And you reminded me every day through school,

My grades dropped because of you

My friends left me as you kept talking and talking.

You told me they left me because there was nothing to like about me

You told me that whenever someone looked at me they were judging me,

You told me that everything i did was not ordinary,

You said that my opinions didn't matter to others,

You told me i had a face that not even a mother could love,

You said that i should stand back and watch,

As people did things i wanted to do .

But you said i was too cowardly and i believed you,

You ruined my family telling me that my mother didn't love me

For years and years you said i was the reason my father left me.

You talked and talked till all i could hear was your voice

Drowning out the voices of the people that did love me.

You told me that i should disappear because that was what was right,

You told me that my best friend should be a knife.

Now here i am back again

On the edge of insanity.

With the cold knife blade ready to stab inside of me

The saddest thing you big bully,

Is you only have two letters in your name,

And they are,

M-E.