happy summer
i.
i went to the crystal store the other week;
the girl behind the counter recommended chrysocolla
to draw out guilt, she told me
it was a pretty stone
colours
like the shadows of trees cast
upon some body of water
i could almost see myself in its blue veins
sinking;
i'll take it
ii.
every time my father sits down at the piano
i turn my chrysocolla over and over
in my hands
and wish the minor notes
didn't sound so much like my name
iii.
cold chrysocolla
coca-cola falls flat in my throat
shallow cuts by christmas tree lights
i feign sleep in my unmade bed out here in the margins
iv.
i’d say goodnight
but it isn’t
i’d say i love you
but i don’t, i can’t
i’ll just cradle my cold stone
cold stone, not quite sober
god, i pray you don’t dream about me
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