My Ego Death

When you can actually see yourself and know who you are as a human being with all your tics and the lies you tell yourself and your habits and the lies you tell yourself about habits cause you to realize who you fundamentally are. It's like if you are a bubble of conscious thought -simply conscious thought, inorganic- and you've just been shown this stranger, but then you merge with the mind of this stranger and go through a vicious warring explosion of thought as you suddenly and violently become this person with a past and all these tics and flaws that are so obviously self destructive and mean and jealous so you want to get out but you can't cos it's… you.

So this was mostly about guilt for you; you have seen your two paths, one full, one without.

It isn't about deciding and there aren't two separate, well in your mind, worlds, you just shift between the areas

Fill your head with the trippy thoughts and you'll be doing the pretending along with all the other people.

Do ya stupid work, ya stupid laundry, and do ya stupid day.