it's so hard to sleep at night. memories flood in, things i dont want to remember, things i want to forget more than i've ever wanted something else. it's destroying me, like one block at a time from a frail jenga tower. i can't keep doing this. it's driving me insane. i sleep fine during the daytime but when night falls i find myself staring at the wall through teary eyes praying to god that he'd let me sleep. just one night. just. one...

but if he hears, he doesn't answer.