joy eats me up like a shark attack

it takes whole chunks under

leaving red trails like ribbons

it takes my heart in the dead of night

and smashes into me at 5pm

when i take my common route home

it takes my leg out and pauses

like a shark attacking

it realises i'm not what it usually eats

it re-evaluates

realises we weren't made for each other

it allows me to scream

it allows me to find the shore

i pull myself out coughing, choking

i kind of wish it had have killed me

because now i'll have this memory

this missing part of me

a fear of the ocean