Only if I had one more day.

Only if I had one more hour- second- anything to be with you.

Only if I could remember you the way I want to.

Only if I had more time.

Only if God would have answered my prayers when I told him to not take you from me.

Only if I could hold your hand- warm hand- alive hand in mine.

Only if the universe could give back life to someone who cared so much about other people.

Only if you knew how worthy we all know you are- were.

Only if you believed you were worthy.

Only if I told you how much you meant to me- how much I love-loved you- how much I would miss you.

Only if you had an extra second of hesitation.

Only if I was enough for you.

Only if everything made sense.

Only if I had all the answers of the why's- unknowns of this confusing place we call our world.

Only if.

Only if.

Only if!

Only if: Day-hour-second- memory of time- answered prayers- warm hands- life- worthy of life-meaning of what your life meant to be- hesitation-enough-sense of unknowns-

Only if I didn't have to miss you for another day.