i unclasped my head like a purse and tipped it out onto my lap. i sifted through all the dark things that i've grown weary of. i picked out the pretty, shiny things. i even found that after some rubbing, the dark rusty things could also be pretty and shiny.

i made a little pile next to me of the reasons that this year i'm excited for summer. i had to scrub quite hard at these ones, but when they sparkled, i was almost blinded.

i picked through all the films i'm going to be able to watch with my mum now that she's home.

i inspected stretching in the morning when i wake up and put it with the rest of my growing mountain.

i grabbed for two more and polished some rust off them.

i can walk around in the rain and i can scratch under my cat's chin.

it's easier to clean off the dirt and rust now. that's what i'm most grateful for.