waiting

I hide my hurt

waiting

for someone to see it

waiting

for someone to help

waiting

because i don't speak out

I slam my door

waiting

for someone to hear it

waiting

for someone to help

waiting

but they just yell to not slam it

I write on my walls

waiting

I write all my hurt

waiting

how I blame myself

waiting

for someone to notice

waiting

but they only saw my room is messy

I blame myself

for waiting

but I cant help

but wait

If only I wasn't me

waiting

telling myself

that waiting

is just manipulation

waiting

is just exageration

waiting

is selfish of me

waiting

its all my fault

waiting

means nothing

and still I wait

waiting

hurting in spasms

crying

and pick myself up

waiting

for someone to notice

me waiting

and help me from

my waiting

because I don't know what to do

so I'm waiting

for someone to help

and yet I know

if my waiting

was somehow noticed

my waiting

would be put off as showy

or my waiting

will be seen by someone

who waiting

will tell me that I need to help them help me

pick myself up again

waiting

and I know Ill always be

waiting

sending distress signals

waiting

inconsistent tears

waiting

for someones voice

but always

waiting