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I used to think about living. I knew I didn't have it in me, nor did I think about it seriously.

I used to think about succeeding, I knew I didn't have it in me. Nor did I think about it seriously.

I used to think about failure, I knew I didn't have it in me. Nor did I think about it seriously.

I experienced the nightmare, I thought about it seriously.

I came out the other side, and now I think more than I can possibly begin to endure, seriously.