Prisoner

I'm trapped in my mind.

A prison of my own making

and I haven't been able to get out for a while now.

I'm not sure how I got in here,

or when the prison started to form around me,

but I know I've been stuck for quite some time.

The problem is

that the prison has begun to feel like home.

I think part of me wants to escape

but knows it's going to be tough

and uncomfortable to break free.

I've learned this helplessness for far too long now.

And where would I even start

when it comes to prison walls

made of guilt, doubt, and shame?

Of past regrets I can't seem to let go of

or forget.

Where does one even find a chisel strong enough

to destroy all of that?

How do I forgive myself for putting myself in this situation?

How do I push away thoughts,

like pink elephants,

that were never supposed to be welcomed into my mind in the first place?

I fear I may be trapped forever

in the prison of my mind.