I'm not sure who is looking back in the mirror at me
staring, so blankly, right in front of me
listen, you can hear her breath
so close, looking a mess
the freckles on her nose are faint
angle kisses, they call them, but she ain't no saint
powerful, this feeling of powerlessness
like the cards were dealt and you're left with hopelessness
the knot in my chest, pulling tighter
really, I thought I was a fighter
disappointing, that's what you are
thought you were gonna go so far
depression? no. depressing? yes.
all of the tears, I repress
a song, a movie, a spot of wine
completely appropriate to cry
anything else? it's not ok
for that's a sign you're not ok
want to scream want to shout
but inside, the throat's a drought
it's not a dream
it's the self-esteem
it's all ego
hard to let it go
look again, in the reflection
all I see is what lacks affection
all those dreams and none of them pipe
now, like the reflection is a daguerreotype
nothing but the image
nothing but the shape
all form no matter
and so, what is the matter?
what is hard in this present moment
and what is so difficult of this bestowment
this gift of divine charity
not so divine, even in memory
for this bestowment can only be granted
if these thoughts go unplanted
surrender the mind, surrender the thoughts
let go of all that is fraught
battle the fret with love and care
even if there's not much flare
listen inside, the solutions are there
every time you lack some air