my reason.

A year ago my reasoning would of been as followed; love. That one person who had captured my heart,and deemed me to be someone of their tastes. Someone they had chosen to stick by with day by day. That one person was who I had vowed to be better for. Strive day after day to be there for, no matter what. But things change, people change. wrongfully or not, they do. And all we can do is accept it. It churned inside me that the one reason I had wilfully woken up morning after morning was no longer there. I had no reason to smile and feel exhilaration. Months after months it had drawn to me what my real reason for wakening up was to be my future. I had been drawn too tightly onto how others feel and what they want from me. How im supposed to react to everything and what my emotions should and should not be. I had freedom when I was in the midlife in which I had my previous lover, I felt alive. Not alone. It was all stripped from me. I lost all reasoning to wake up. However it all changes, in which my reasoning for waking up currently in the moment is to live my life how I souly want to, regain the feeling of being alive. Be myself again but in a better fashion. I want to be myself, be happy within myself not anyone else. Im waiting for the moment I can walk out of school with a degree, money aside for me to start checking into my life as an individual with no one to tell me what I can and can not do. Promote myself as an individual who needs no one but themselves to thrive and suceed.