It is about fucking time
I am shredded
I've had it.
Drug face down behind a semi
My gravel face is laughing
With mad delusion jousting
Flesh is hanging raw from
My milky bones
I am naked and cold
I stepped out of my suit
And my black heels
My red prescription called
Splashed sideways in a box of wine
And she went down easy tonight
But it took a long time
The bitch-face of Resilience
But finally...
I am drunk
And your face was here
You are blurry now
Creamy smears
Laced with blue tracers
Like LSD
Everything is distorted
And your words
Are distant & irrelevant
Characters in reverse
Emerging from Alice's hole
And your smell is faint
A fire exhausted
Fading on the breeze
Smokey and grey
And carried away
By the sun-dried leaves
Everything real is dropping
And your image is crumbling
Your beauty baptized in acid
I am numb
I feel nothing
Except the lump
Sorrow resting
With permanence in
My narrowing throat
I dissolved in your hands
In front of your eyes
I pleaded the entire time
And you watched me fall
From your once-loving hands
I am haunted by your heart beating
Like Poe in a box
And my awkward sobriety is
Minimal, at best
A vampire by day
I am mixed up
Fucked and destroyed
By your wordy promises
Carried by metaphors
Clever and deceiving
Hanging by the winter moonbeams
Now gone
And I am confused
By the devotions you pledged
I cannot drive
By your cardboard house
With the stray cat
And hydrangea porch
I will watch you smoke
Miming your tongue
I am drunk
Inebriated with depression
The loss of you is torture
Insatiable pinpricks to
My buttoned heart
And it is ruining me
I cannot shake you
But Cheers to my senses
They will mourn indefinitely
& they will swim in spirits
For my desire for you is
Unquenchable.