It is about fucking time

I am shredded

I've had it.

Drug face down behind a semi

My gravel face is laughing

With mad delusion jousting

Flesh is hanging raw from

My milky bones

I am naked and cold

I stepped out of my suit

And my black heels

My red prescription called

Splashed sideways in a box of wine

And she went down easy tonight

But it took a long time

The bitch-face of Resilience

But finally...

I am drunk

And your face was here

You are blurry now

Creamy smears

Laced with blue tracers

Like LSD

Everything is distorted

And your words

Are distant & irrelevant

Characters in reverse

Emerging from Alice's hole

And your smell is faint

A fire exhausted

Fading on the breeze

Smokey and grey

And carried away

By the sun-dried leaves

Everything real is dropping

And your image is crumbling

Your beauty baptized in acid

I am numb

I feel nothing

Except the lump

Sorrow resting

With permanence in

My narrowing throat

I dissolved in your hands

In front of your eyes

I pleaded the entire time

And you watched me fall

From your once-loving hands

I am haunted by your heart beating

Like Poe in a box

And my awkward sobriety is

Minimal, at best

A vampire by day

I am mixed up

Fucked and destroyed

By your wordy promises

Carried by metaphors

Clever and deceiving

Hanging by the winter moonbeams

Now gone

And I am confused

By the devotions you pledged

I cannot drive

By your cardboard house

With the stray cat

And hydrangea porch

I will watch you smoke

Miming your tongue

I am drunk

Inebriated with depression

The loss of you is torture

Insatiable pinpricks to

My buttoned heart

And it is ruining me

I cannot shake you

But Cheers to my senses

They will mourn indefinitely

& they will swim in spirits

For my desire for you is

Unquenchable.