Things on my mind lately

I never thought I'd have a strong enough urge to write something, but I am grateful that it came, a sort of background to these thoughts can be given in time, I currently lie in a sliver of time where even a day's happenings can amount to a year or two of data acquired for someone who is say, in their 60's. I think things happen to us so quickly at this point (or sliver) in time that we do not get any leeway to catch out breath let alone hold a pen or get on top of keys to punch down what went by us.

Things accumulate, they yearn to be let out and eventually they explode, and that is when we push ourselves to write, though us would be an unjust generalization here.

Thing #1

I have a junior at college, he is a dunce at studies but that is the only thing he's a dunce at, I saw him dragging his friend to a photoshoot that was going on for his (and my) team had qualified for the college intra faculty football tournament finals. He drags his friend who refuses to come along, Nihal then proceeds to say the following words "don't you understand? I want you to be included in an important moment of my life, I want to share it with you" proceeding which his friend and my mind fell silent. A day has passed since then and I sit here pondering as to how beautiful of a thing that was to say to another person. I sit and think how guys in general don't usually express themselves to that extent, I think to myself how would I feel if someone said that to me, I think to myself what sort of a face would my friends make if I said that to them, do I even have the courage to say that to them?

Thing #2

Thing 2 requires a little lore so here goes:

Valorant is an online tactical shooter game, a lot like CSGO or Call of Duty, it has a range of characters you can play as while carrying out the goal of defeating the other team, each of these characters have a story attached to them thereby giving them depth. One of them goes by the name "Omen" his story involves him being involved in a failed scientific experiment with his friend due to which he end up transforming into a half-human half-phantom/spirit sort of a juxtaposed entity. Omen longs for his humanity, he has a hazy memory and several other things that make him my favorite valorant character. Of his many signature lines one is where he wins a battle all by himself and says "Still just human". I think about that line a lot and what it entails in that context. Another time when I find that line relatable is when I find myself crying. Crying is something I don't want to lose, as I have seen people who do not know how to weep even in times where it is most natural to, and to me emanates such a distant from humanity aura. And so be it today or yesterday or any day that follows, I continue to think and say to myself whenever I cry, "still just human".

Thing #3

Thing 3 needs to be refined a little more.

I believe this will do for now, articulating thoughts is a hard skill to master