pain fades, regret endures

I wronged a girl who didn't deserve it,

The first one to show affection for me;

I lit a flame but didn't preserve it,

'Twas snuffed by artificiality.

I set her free, giving her half a lie,

Forcing half into my own shallow brain.

Saying I liked her too much so goodbye.

Hoping the shame I felt outweighed her pain.

The regret comes up too many a-day,

Often as I reflect on past mistakes.

I've thought about ev'ry step of the way,

Honestly, honesty's all that it takes.

I was selfish, shallow, and immature;

I suppose I might be some of those still.

I try to be better, yet I'm unsure,

Can I fix what I've done with what I will?