Adopted from Heaven
My pain and misery fall from the sky
So hard I try to ignore it, but it still gets by
Surrounded with memories of what could've been
The hatred screams under my skin
Your whispers sting and my chest gets tight
While you dance around in the tobacco night
Your knife sharp teeth have got a hold on me
And my breathing starts to get a little harder
Pulsing through my veins is the anger I feel
Wounds break open as soon as they seal
Darkness surrounds me with every step I take
I manage a smile but inside, I'm dying
And the screaming is so useless
I'm feeling just a little, a little cynical
But you actually mean something to me.
I wish you could see I'm as different inside as I'm the same
I wish you could see that I'm not to blame
I know the truth used to be blocked in your heart
And now that it's out, it's tearing me apart
What do I do? Where can I go from here?
How long am I willing to face my fears?
Do I try and make it alone with nothing to fall back on?
Do I keep searching for answers for some clues of what I seek?
Right now, I'm blowing kisses to the moon, a lovely crescent
It would watch me fade away into permanent rest
I'd leave my wounds behind as your crest
I'd be renowned for weakness and as queer as well
But I'd be remembered fondly for the way that I fell.
Illicit substances and jaded thoughts,
My soul festers and my heart rots
My fire has burned out, my passion died
My friends are shallow and you lied
You're supposed to have the answers
And build me up with cheer
But maybe I'll get better. Maybe I'll change.
Maybe our family won't always be so strange.
I don't know what you expect
Or the things that make you sigh
All I know is that you're my parents
The ones I hope that one day I'll satisfy
Ma, I still miss the time when you gave me your all
But this is my life and I've named it The Fall
Don't you see that you actually mean something to me?
So take a few seconds to think and breathe
Please don't make this harder for me.