I Know Now

I woke up this morning

and was no longer confused.

I awoke and suddenly knew

everything I've put you through.

The long nights without a call

worrying you all,

that is until you saw.

I was high not dead

sleeping soundlessly in my bed.

not a care in the world,

that is until I heard 

the weeps and cry from those I love.

I'm 6 months sober and know

I can stay this way till its time to go.