spoiler alert ~ i love him

There's a boy I know.

An old friend of mine I've had since childhood.

I hate him more than I can express.

I hate how his smile feels like sunshine.

I hate how his tallness exaggerates my shortness.

I hate his kindness, I hate his patience, and I hate his chivalry.

I hate that his mom treats me like a daughter.

I hate that his dad hugs me every time he sees me.

I hate that his family loves me like their own.

I hate how his eyes send my stomach into somersaults.

I hate how my heart stutters when he laughs.

I hate how I blush at the simplest brush of a hand.

I hate that he is so easy to talk to.

I hate that he is such a gentle soul.

I hate that we look so beautiful standing next to each other.

But most of all, reader, I hate that I can't truly hate him.

I hate that no matter how much I say "he's the worst!"

I'll never believe it.

I hate that while I creep deeper in love with him,

Falling head over heels every time I see him,

He has never, and will never, look at me the way that I look at him.