I’m Working On It

I'm me, now. I'm no longer plagued by linearly asking,

"Am I forgetting something? Is there anything I need in this room before I exit it? Do I have any cups to take out?

Any laundry? Are my shoes out away? I meant to call my doctor. I need to remember to do that on my phone when I get to the next room. Did I need to do anything else today? Okay, I can leave the room-Any laundry? Are my shoes out away? I meant to call my doctor. I need to remember to do that on my phone when I get to the next room. Did I need to do anything else today? Okay, I can leave the room-

Look on a spot the left side of the doorknob. Where? There. There. There. Now a spot on the right side to make it even. Is that the same distance away from the doorknob? There There There. Ugh, It's not quite the same. Move focus in a bit inward toward the doorknob. There. There. There. Is that good? Good enough. I remember when I would make actual lists of things to do. I should do that again. Is there anything in that room that I need? I should have gone out to check the mailbox. Oh well my hands are full with this blanket and I have to feed Lucy."

"Lucy! Come eat," I call.

"I've got to go to the closet and get her food. My steps aren't even. Even them out. Open the door. You used too much pressure on your left foot-make it even."

My mind doesn't do this constantly any more. My mind makes me happy, focused, and possibly best of all- my tics are comparatively few and far between. I'm learning to be ME now.