Letting Go

Why is letting go so difficult?

I honestly don't want to let you go.

You've been this amazing person

who has been a constant in my life.

...

but,

if I'm being honest,

it's felt one-sided for a long time...

And if anyone else treated me like this,

you'd probably tell me to stop reaching out

because they don't care at all.

...

But it's hard,

because I still care.

And to even think you don't care anymore

breaks my fucking heart.

I want to hear about your day

and talk about our dreams.

Make plans for the future

and talk about how we would be sensational together

like we used to.

I miss that feeling so much,

that someone cared for me

and wanted to be in my life.

But now, the silence is overwhelming

and I'm tired of trying to hold on to something

that clearly doesn't want or need me any longer.

Perhaps,

you were what I needed at the time

and it's time to release my grasp on you.

But...

I think part of me

will always hope

you will reach out to me

and see how I'm doing...

For now,

I'll continue to count the months

that pass

without a single word.

6.