Shield

The swift rush of the restaurant door gushing with wind,

Taking steps back, wanting to rescind.

Nervousness shakes my body and mind,

As we leave the place where we dined.

I wish I was nowhere, no one, nothing,

Our date and conversation having no ring.

Years we have been together, but it feels all glum,

Is this how it feels to be with someone for a sum?

Not just my awkwardness but up in the sky,

Is raindrops and water standing by.

She said, "Let's go right now to avoid being soaked,"

Walking out the frame and wearing our coats, cloaked.

But water is shielded with umbrella in my hand,

The circumference of what I hold protecting where we stand.

The fabric does not solve the cold,

Both shivering and trembling like I am about to fold.

Silent in speech yet loud with my body, feeling alone,

An unpleasant emotion right down to the bone.

"This is not going the way I envisioned it,"

My time with her feels wasted, do not like it one tiny bit.

"Does she even love me anymore?"

A question ringing right down to the core.

Yet there she is too, crossed arms in a hunch,

Waking me up like a fist for a punch.

How could I be so selfish in my own world,

When she also longs for company, her body all curled.

Polyester and nylon is her protection from the water,

But it's up to me to still say, "I got her."

Arm wrapped around and holding her close,

This is exactly what I longed for the most.

Still quiet and shaking if I made the right choice,

Her actions speak louder than her beautiful voice.

Arm wrapped around me in a sweet embrace,

Head tilted right and an intimate space.

In this alone my questions have answers,

My emotions running wild like a group of dancers.

Our uncertainty if we were still each other's lover,

All broken down with a hug like no other.

"It is better to give than to receive,"

Oh my goodness, I don't ever want to leave.