Eleven

1.The phone call that broke my world apart

tearing the fabric of my innocence

as I was thrust into reality too soon.

2. The lungs that collapsed from the weight

on my chest as the words crashed

into my mind piece by piece.

3. The loved ones who cry every night

because they can't help but blame themselves

for not being able to see the invisible.

4. The years we had known each other

that all seem to be a blur

of fading classrooms and familiar ghosts.

5. The people who held me

and whispered promises they couldn't keep

as the light of youth went out for good.

6. The tainted year that began my

downward spiral onto leathery couches

and empty words full of fake feelings.

7. The days it took me to realize

that my shadow was consuming me

and leading me down the loneliest path

to battle my own darkness.

8. The years that have passed by

using each waking moment

as a reminder of all that you could have been.

9. The grade that I let all my thoughts

and regrets flow through lead tips

and trembling fingers so I could feel some sort of peace.

10. The seconds it takes for me

to regain control of my own demons

when your name falls from unworthy lips.

11. The age when you decided

that life wasn't worth living and

that I wasn't enough to keep you hanging on.