Give Me Hell

It's a night like any other

not warm, not cool

can never get the pillow just right

too hot with a blanket

too cold without

a soul itching to get out of it's skin

and the mind starts in

with the remember when's

remember when she made a joke about you wanting to die

remember when she took the bullies side

remember when you would scream into the mattress

remember letting the blood run down your arm

remember that noise you made

when you thought there was no air left in you

tomorrow will be the same you know

and the day after

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!"

I screamed into my empty bedroom

And it wasn't a saint that came to me

It wasn't Jesus

It was a cloaked figure with yellow eyes

calling himself Abaddon

"I'm the ruler of hell." He said.

"Yet you seem to be giving me a run for my money."

I had no fear of him

and it took him standing there in front of me to realize why

hell hath no fury

like the fury I have for myself

So go ahead, give me hell