Romans 7:15

The TRUTH stands boldly

behind the thin veil of my unwillingness

and shines without hesitation

upon me the moment I decide to disown

my own intentional ignorance.

But the poisons I ingest

still must run their course

and be flushed from me

and in so doing they cling inside my memory

and often my eyes close due to pain,

for some reason that darkness is comforting

despite how it drains the warmth from me

until I am left again cold and shivering

with that thin veil blowing in a gentle breeze

and out of shame I turn away

from the bright light shining behind it

and everything I try just makes me colder

and the clouds of breath in the air become my soul,

it drifts away from me and dissolves in the darkness

which is all somehow an illusion

because all I have to do is peek timidly

just move the veil an inch

and it is burned up suddenly

and I am warm again

because the TRUTH is not dependent on how it is perceived

it is self-existent and does not need me to make it real

and I come to find that the desperation and pain

comes from a conflict in my soul

which knows that I constantly turn my face

from God.